If its only gonna be one game, I think I gotta let it go. As much as Ill obsess over one game and play it over and over... I don't know... there has to be more to life than just playing ONE game, forever.
Newness is a big component to what drives me as a person... not as part of some philosophical or religious ideology, but ADHD. The idea of doing any one thing forever makes me feel like jumping out of my skin.
There comes a point every few months where I need to start being a different person, do different things for fun, because my brain literally just starts dropping input and the drop is steep. When normal people get bored in life, they can still generally take care of themselves and do what they need to do. I lose my mental faculties and pretty much forget how to exist as an adult. Playing the same game forever is pretty much just gonna dull me out for very little enjoyment and push me towards a decline in my keeping of daily tasks and routines. I kinda just can't do it to myself. Managing this stuff aint a game. I can have a pretty bad life with this whole deal, if Im not minding my activities.
I could work a single game into that cycle, I guess. Make it 'special' for myself. I kind of already do that with my absolute favorites. But there are only so many ways for a person to mentally recontextualize one piece of entertainment before things fall fallow, at which point eeking out more just feels to me like a herculean endeavor. Just this terrible, very dire feeling of dysphoria, like having an itch you havent been able to scratch for 10 years. ADHD, mannn. I can put every drop of life force into something one day as though my intuition was made for that thing, and then wonder why I cared at all the next. So its very difficult to imagine what my 'forever game' would even be like.